La peur est un ami qui est mal compris.

- I have realized how financially irresponsible I am.

- I’ve watched my boyfriend lose his car to some skanky bitch.

- I’ve battled yet again another bout of depression.

- I’ve been sick.

- I’ve cried until there was nothing left in me.

- I’ve made new friends and new enemies.

But in all honesty, this is life and I wouldn’t trade a second of it.

being treated like I’m only an option. Or that I’m only here and needed when it’s convenient for you.

Hues I should have thought about that before I treated every one else like shit huh?

Karma’s a big fat bitch.

But oh well, I deserve it I guess.

is a battle you have to learn to fight on your own.

Everyone can talk to you.
They can prescribe you all the medicine in the world.
But end the end, you just end up feeling alone.
No matter how hard you try not too.

I really need to learn to make friends. To surround myself with people that love me.

But when you feel as bad as I do, you only make those who care feel just as bad as you.

I don’t know.

Funny how I seem to only use this thing to be pathetic.

Anonymous asked: realize. You aren't being a whiny baby, you are just growing up, and growing up is hard to do. Find something, anything positive at all, and put your heart into it. Don't let it be another person, or something that won't show your effort. Find something worth doing and when you are feeling particularly low, go to it. Escape to it. Become the best at it, and it will make you happy. Find something to give your life new meaning. <3

You may not realize how much words, especially words like this mean to someone like me. People like you give me hope that I’m not crazy and that I can and will overcome bullshit. Thank you. So much.

Anonymous asked: I believe that the key to loving life is looking at the small things. Not just appreciating what you have in front of you, or who you are with, or, what job you have, or your friends, or your material possessions, but learning to walk outside, look at a pretty flower, or hearing the birds and realizing that the world is not so bad. Relish those moments when things to do right and hold onto them for when you feel bad. Life is incredibly overwhelming, but you are made of stronger stuff than you...

^^^

I haven’t felt like this in a really long time and the more I dwell on it the crazier I feel.

It’s like when one thing goes great, I have to take notice of the misery surrounding me.

I guess you can tell me I’m acting ridiculous and being a total whiny baby but the truth of the matter is I’m 21 and I still haven’t learned to cope with emotional exhaustion.

Sometimes I feel like I’m on top of the world and then other times I kind of feel like someone has buried me alive. I know that probably doesn’t make any sense but it’s how I feel.

I really wish someone would just take my hand and show me that things do get better. No matter how fucked up or how insignificant a bad can be.

I’ve learned recently that when someone says you’re their best friend it’s mostly just bullshit. Unless you find that one person who is telling you the truth. I have 2 people I can count on thankfully but why does it still feel like I’m completely alone in the world?

/endpatheticemotionalrant